Guitar Center fun... ness??? I guess???

Well, yesterday Natalya, Kelsey, and I met up. I totally forgot to turn the ringer back on on my phone, cause I had it off the other night so in case Charles called like crazy it wouldn't bother me and my voicemail could get it. That was the idea anyways...

Well, when I got home I forgot to turn the damn thing's ringer back on so my phone was like on silent forever. Iwas stupid at home thinking, I wonder if they're asleep(cause i've been up since 6 freakin am!)... lol cause Natalya has a bad habit of sleeping for WAAAAY too long and getting ready WWWAAAAYYY too slow. (like Saturday, I waited for her for 5 FUCKING HOURS!!! Just for her to ditch her damn friend and get to town already, then she gets here and is all like you're late, you're late, fucking pisses me off...)

So, I wonder around my house and wait and wait and I'm like.. My phone has so not rang yet... and the clock says 12:45pm and we were supposed to meet at about 12:00pm So like noon! Well, I go to my phone and open it up to call someone and BAM lots of missed calls. I had like a list of 15 missed calls... all of people trying to freakin get a hold of me... I was like OMFGWTFTW... SHIT!

I call and get a sarcastic Natalya, it sort of pissed me off because of the day before and she has somewhat pissed me off today a bit too when she said that we don't need a bassist.... further when she kept wondering the guitar store and not knowing what the hell to get after I've urged her to get lessons for something for the past few months. I'm not sure if start a band with her was a good idea... she's just so much more behind everyone else and does not pick up on things involving coordination very well... she just might end up being a backup person or something.

Honestly, don't know what to do with 3 freakin guitarist and only 2 knowing how to really play (me and Kelsey) while 1 just plays around... trying to act and be like a guitarist(Natalya)!

That's just the vibe I get and it's making me somewhat upset... ok...very very upset that I even thought about starting a band with her. It's also like seriously hitting me that she has such a warped and untrusting view on relationships that it's crazy. It's no wonder she can't keep one when she has one! (and the only ones that continue to chase her are messed up in the head further, like xfiance Taylor) Plus, it's just the comments she makes toward things I tell her. I don't want to tell her anything anymore and just want to keep them short and sweet for now. She's so self absorbed now... more than before and it disgusts me. I don't know how to tell her that she's an annoying bitch now and I really want just space and time away from her for a while, I can only stand her so much now. She use to be a great person to talk and hang with, really down to earth, and just great... Now though? Not so much. Definitely not the same person that was my best friend.

I think that she has this idea that we're going to be doing like hardcord metal or something... I don't know if she realizes or not but 1, my voice is not that style... 2, we want to do ROCK and POP-ROCK not METAL... 3... she has no clue what our target audience is and what is trendy for that age, everything she likes is so.... dated... unless it's like clothing for photoshoots. which does not help here.

So, I tried to stay happyish I guess and I didn't speak much or tried not to... and people know that I am VERY TALKATIVE and speak my mind a lot. Today I kept it at bay to try not to get super mad and pissed.

Well, I guess that's it for my theraputic rant on that...