So, I was kind of upset today... after thinking that my mom was going to pay for my summer tuition because she told me a few weeks ago BEFORE my little bro had his nose and eyes done that she would pay for my tuition this summer...... she just didn't pull through.
Instead she whined about how I should be finding other ways to pay for it even though today was the deadline to pay and she kept on whining until they closed the payment deadline... which was like 30 mins long.... she claims it was 5 mins but I know that woman exaggerates like a horse's nose on a wide angle lense... The fact is is that she made a promise to me for something that was important and whined and didn't pull through for me.
I don't understand how she can spend $5k on cosmetic surgery for eye lids to be cut so they have a fold in them (which is uncommon naturally in lots of asians but i have it naturally and my bro doesn't) and then about another $5k to get a scar reopened and stitched on his nose to have it be less noticeable and not pay $575 for my freakin summer tuition!!!
It kind of sickens me... she already owes my fiance and I $800 that she keeps promising but puts off like no ones business... told me she'd pay for my school tuition which is $575 for the summer and didn't come through...
I'm always getting the short end of the stick. I truely think that because we're mostly chinese and because my mom comes from a chinese background culturally and I come from an american one that we have major issues... I don't know if she thinks of the girl of the family as pretty much property and dead (that's how my grandparents on her side view girls) but that's how I feel... dead to her....
I just sort of believe that you may not treat all of your children the same because they are not the same person, but at least treat them equally. You know? I just don't feel like I'm being treated equally based on how my brothers are treated compared to me and what they receive compared to me. It's just a load of bullocks/shit if you ask me...
I am 23 now and I sort of am starting to believe that I can't count on her for anything at all. Something like this is so small... it's just not right... I'm not a child anymore where you can make a promise and put it off for a while and I'll smile and say okay. I'm a grown woman that keeps her word always and I expect the same from people... especially my own mother... but she can't seem to pull through for me ever...
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